073 - Nicole J. LeBoeuf-Little

21-8-00 19:01:06 -0000

Childhood

Started writing down my dreams around the age of 10, starting with a dream of Mom having baked bread and me being disappointed at not being given the option to participate. I wrote it down because the very next day, Mom did indeed bake bread. Besides that incident, I became aware around that time of how rich and fantastic a world dreams were, and I resolved to enjoy that world. My family's attitude was mostly disinterested but not disencouraging. As my interest in dreams evolved into something I could write successfully about or base Perl script programs on (i.e. The Dream Vortex), my parents' were always there for me to crow to as they were regarding any successful project. And if I call Mom on the phone and tell her about a distressing dream, she'll be as concerned and sympathetic as she would over a distressing waking event. What I never ran into (and this goes for the larger community as well) was disencouragement or "I don't want to hear about it." If I were to bring a dream up in conversation, it would be treated as valid as any other conversation topic. But no one went out of their way to discuss them every breakfast time or anything like that.

Turning point

I already discribed the Psychic Breadbaking Incident that got me started writing down dreams. Soon after, I would devote whole blank books to them, sewing titles into the cloth covers, writing the dreams in wacky colors and waking commentary in regular pen. Sometimes I'd index them by title and date, number the pages, maybe even catalog the subject matter. I practiced (with some little success) lucid dreaming and out of body experiments. I'd sometimes keep track of lunar astrology so I could track the sign the moon was in for a given dream. My obsession with these kinds of details went in cycles. As a writer, dream-recording became a logical extension of the first-thing-in-the-morning-writing-exercise.

Definition

Dreams: How your wordless bit talks to your wordy bit; or, the experiences your wordy bit can have when it becomes your worldless bit. All other metaphysical, psychic, or spiritual abstractions simply arise from this laying aside of the conscious, wordy, ego mask.

Now

I try to write them down whenever I remember them, along with date, time, location, a title, and descriptive info I think might be relevant (i.e. "When I woke up, I saw it had started snowing"). If they seem to be blatant warnings, I check up on those warnings (as when I dreamt of having a leukemia relapse, and immediately arranged to have a blood count performed). If they seem to be Big Dreams, holy phenomena, I try to honor them in waking life with some action besides the writing them down. Usually I just write them down and think about them. Mostly I view them as a holistic barometer, a second opinion on how things are going.



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